As I was driving to work the other day, a sad Selena Gomez song was playing on the radio, and it occurred to me that I was smiling. It struck me because I have been going through my usual leading up to the holiday, November blues. My mind during the holidays can be quite a mess, and here I was a little joyous.
At the beginning of the week, I made sure to focus on all I was grateful for. I worked hard on keeping away the negativity. There were some rough moments in the middle of the night on Thanksgiving Eve.
It was my job to make Christmas happy for my children, so I fought the underlying sadness when my kids were small. To this day, no matter what gift anyone gives me, I won’t be happy. I will say thank you and pretend,