My Tiny Miracle And A Message
This morning I got out of bed sooo tired. I couldn’t fall asleep last night. There doesn’t have to be a reason or there can be a dozen reasons. No matter what, it’s usually my head to blame. The body is tired but the neurotransmitters in my brain don’t seem to want to take a rest.
What am I wearing to my daughter’s wedding? (It’s in 3 weeks)
Have I saved enough money this year?
Who is coming for Easter and do I have enough food?
What am I making for brunch?
How far in advance can I make frittatas?
Did I forget to pray for somebody?
Am I going to be alive in 5 years? Or 10?
I hope to God this cancer doesn’t go to my liver…
Is it ok if I pray for myself or is it selfish?
Why can’t my family just love each other without all the judgment?
Do you all feel me?
I know most of you do and my heart goes out to you. Life is so very difficult.
But I am not here to bring you down – I want to lift you up! I want you to know you aren’t ever alone!
Through all my thoughts at one, two and three in the morning, I cling to my rosaries and pray. Jesus died for all to give us hope and let us know in life and in death, the beautiful miracle of everlasting love is always there no matter where we are in the world. Just as anyone who passes away, is still by our side.
So this morning I came downstairs, made a cup of coffee, and sat in my favorite spot to read. I wanted to start my day with some peace and get out of my own head. When I looked up to glance out my window, this is what I saw …
Can you see my little miracle flower?
This plant hadn’t bloomed since I got it a few years back. I don’t even remember why it was given to me or who it came from. This beautiful bit of nature almost died a bunch of times, but I never gave up on it. I just kept watering it a little at a time, put a couple of friends around it, and this morning, the bloom came out of nowhere! I hadn’t even noticed a bud when I watered it a couple of days ago.
It was like a tiny miracle for me on Good Friday of all days. So many times I can’t hear my heart because of all the noise in my head, but in a rare, peaceful moment, something happens.
In the last year, there were several moments and various reasons I felt defeated. And then suddenly the angels would come and save me or a bird would cross my path. Today, it was a small, but beautiful reminder again to never give up, to hold onto faith, and to keep praying. Sometimes it takes a long time to see even the tiniest bit of hope and it comes out of nowhere – but it comes.
The message I got today and want to pass on to you is; faith, just like any relationship, needs love and nurturing, and when given, miracles can happen. We just have to keep believing! ❤️❤️
This holy season, I wish you all a peaceful moment with a tiny miracle and pray you feel its significance.
Much love today and every day,
Sandy
PS: Update – My tumor is still alive but is dying and shrinking as it should be with my disease considered stable. Next month I go for another MRI to check my liver and right now, I feel as healthy as ever! God and all is good! xoxo
Oh Sandy I needed this! There’s a reason I decided to check my emails now at this time of night. Really uplifting and so true in every way! Faith is so important please continue to stay strong love is all around you! Love you so much xoxoxo
Beautiful post.
It’s always okay to pray for yourself. Just be open to the different answers.
One of the important things that I learned later in life is that learning to let go of all the negative stuff and the stuff that doesn’t matter.
Let go, let God.
I hope you and your wonderful family have a wonderful Easter weekend.
Love you.
Sandy, you brought tears to my eyes! Thank you for this beautiful post! I will continue to pray for you and your family. Have a beautiful and blessed Easter.
Thank you so much, Angela! You always leave the kindest comments and I appreciate them and the prayers so much! Love and Easter Blessings to you and the family. xoxo
So happy to hear from you. Hope you have a wonderful Blessed Easter. We are in Florida but are going home soon. Ed and I are spending it with 2 couples from NY, It’s the first time in my life I won’t be with Family on Easter. It sounds sad but it should be fun.
Happy Easter,
Helen
Happy Easter, Helen! Yes, I have had a lot going on in the last year but I try and write as much as I can. Much love to you and Ed – enjoy your time in Florida!
xoxo
Sandy, your words always touch my heart and seem to come at just the right moment. I had the same kind of experience this week; I was outdoors, where I feel most grounded, and was asking the universe to give me some answers or guidance. I happened to look up at the sky and saw a cloud formation that resembled a face with halo over it’s head. I felt a sense of calm and that a force bigger than me was watching over me.
I love this! I had a conversation this week with my daughter on our respective higher powers – it is the only explanation and We just have to be open to the answers. I hope that calm stays with you, somebody is letting you know they are there and listening!
Thank you so much for reaching out and for your kind words! xoxo